So I'm resurrecting my dA account... again... after two years...

I just get really crazy over my art sometimes, you know? I can't stand to post anything less than perfect. I know it's totally irrational, so I try to post anyway, but when I do, or even just think of it, I feel incredibly GUILTY. Not just anxious, but like I'm about to do something incredibly wrong and bad. (I know, I need therapy but I don't have real insurance until the new year so y'all have to deal with my neuroses for now.)

So I overwork my drawings until they're all stiff and awkward. Then I'm like, I've spent 15 hours messing with this and it's absolutely terrible! That's very discouraging and before long I hate drawing and looking at other people's art just makes me feel jealous instead of inspired and this is supposed to be fun!! I'm not getting paid for it, so it should be fun!! So I quit drawing anything but doodles in notebooks for months.

Anyway, all that is just an excuse for all the unfinished shit that's going to be posted to this journal in the coming days/weeks.

I'M NOT SORRY

(well, yes i am but i'm trying to stop)